Okay, I’m a little late with my own bit of accountability here.
Last week, I continued writing for the strip and working on some of the characters—how (and why) they exist in Chud and Trog’s world. I mostly stuck to two characters, Waddle and Perry. It was legit hard to just find 20 to 30 minutes every day, but I did it, and I’m kind of proud of that. I still don’t know what I’m doing, so my main goal is just to dedicate a set amount of time each day to Atomic Tails—at least 20 minutes to write, draw, and imagine things. It’s not like I don’t have a ton of self-doubt about all of this, but fuck it. It makes me happy, and I’m getting good at drawing cartoon mice.
In my personal life, things are getting better. I feel much less manic (fuck’n crazy) than I did the last several weeks, and this Wednesday (tomorrow) marks one full month without cannabis, alcohol, cigarettes, or anything else. My twin (and roommate), however, continues to smoke cigars around me, which is a little irritating while I’m trying to quit all this other stuff. Still, it’s not so bad.
Sleeping is a real problem. I’ll go several days with maybe a couple of hours of sleep, and then on the 4th or 5th day, I’ll finally get something like a decent night’s rest. Oh, and then there are the nightmares. There’s nothing worse than someone explaining their dreams (to me), but they are very vivid, scary, and I am now officially afraid of the dark again at the age of 48.
My emotions are a bit more stable (I think), but I still “spin out” once in a while, and life just feels kind of irritating. When I’m not on drugs, people are so stupid—so very, very stupid—and it bugs me in ways I don’t understand. I really hate all of them at the same time right now. I hope that passes too, with time.
Anyway, I’ll keep up the work and post again next Sunday. (I’ll shoot for Sunday, not Tuesday.)
Cheers!